Today is a day when I want to drive my car around all day, not being responsible for a single thing.
Today is a day when I realize that I'm still the restless person I've been all along, that I haven't really settled down in any way.
Today is a day when I feel fifteen, anxiously awaiting the announcement that will free me from the school day early and let me board the bus and head to a swim meet. Probably the first of the season.
Today is a day when the wind against my skin feels amazing.
Today is a day when I want to move to Texas and care about high school football.
Today is a day when I want to move to New York City, wear high heels without falling down, drink a mocha latte at three in the afternoon and stay out all night with my dark, moody boyfriend. Or better yet, my handsome, successful artist boyfriend. Moodiness is overrated.
Today is a day when I see children running around, and I feel grateful that I don't have a child yet but hopeful that I will have one in the future.
Today is a day when I deal with the ramifications of having dreamt that I had a daughter named Serena.
Today is a day when it feels unneccessarily cruel to make me stay indoors until 9 p.m.
Today is a day when I want to work in a bubble, in a safe, corporate office where I don't have to deal with snoring or screaming homeless people.
Today is a day when I want to not know that there are still people who need to shop at the 98 cent clearance center, because they have to.
Today is a day when I want to believe that everyone in the world climbed out of the need to have K-Mart layaway at the same time my family did.
Today is a day that I remember that though we were neither incredibly poor nor even remotely upper middle class, we have overcome some financial difficulties.
Today is a day I do not want to go back to how things used to be.
Today is a day when I realize I'm not entirely done finding myself.